Sez’s blog

I needed some cheap retail therapy to cheer myself up, so I typed 'dress size 16-18' into the ebay search engine, and suddenly found myself staring at these.... I don't even have a boyfriend! So instead, I will stash them away here on my blog, well, just in case, you know. Just don't tell any boys.

I wrote a list today. An escape plan from my current life. It goes like this:

1) Find a job

2) Find a nice man

3) Pay off ALL debts

4) Buy a house

5) Have babies

6) Travel.

At which point did babies come before more travelling? Hmm. Things have changed.

We haven't had rain all year, I think it's all come at once today. It's raining so hard my ceiling is creaking, my windows are groaning, and my garden is flooding. I might run out and put the grass seed down quickly, provided I don't get blown away by the cyclonic wind in the process. My puppy is very scared.

Now, men, who understands them? Last night I had the most embarassing moment of "So you want to make this official?" followed by an awkward silence then him saying "I only want friendship, I only did it all as a friend". Is giving flowers "just because I can", lots of kisses, cuddles, snuggling to watch movies and in bed just friendship? When did the rules change? I am lost.

And feeling kinda stupid.

Bit quiet, bit out of practice when it comes to blogging, sorry!

Well I'm still here. Still with Sam - things are getting better (most days), getting a puppy in a couple of days as long as my property passes the 'fencing test', finding my uni work impossibly difficult, about to lose my job and having a lot of trouble finding another one, still trying and failing to lose weight, and wondering if/how/when I'll ever get to visit everyone in the UK again when I can't seem to find a money tree anywhere.

Not all as bad as it sounds, honestly!

What about you? I am opening my page up for whinging - go ahead, do your worst. Get it off your chest!

xx

Reba

I used to blog at least once a day, in the good old days. Now I have to get an update email to remind me that I even HAVE a blog. How things have changed.

Anyway, quite update... I work for a massive American company which is totally f*cked in this financial crisis and my job ends in April. It is almost impossible to find another one as every other company is in the same boat.

My face has gotten thinner, the rest of me is about the same but starting to sag. Yay me.

I live with my on-again-off-again man Sam. Things are NOT going well. We broke up last May when he lied, cheated and kicked me out. We slept together a few times since, I dated other people, he got jealous, he fell in love with another woman online, I got jealous... and so on. I moved here in December and needed a flat mate to help cover rent and he needed somewhere to stay so he took the spare room. Since then things have developed and after Christmas he said he wanted to try again and I thought he meant it but it's really not feeling like it, especially as he refuses to tell anyone and says he's incapable of loving at the moment as he has so many issues with himself to work out first. I'm starting to feel like if he can't give me what I want then maybe I should go find it elsewhere.

Anyway I must forget about all that for a few days because this is our weekend with his 3 boys. Oh, did I forget to mention them?

*pulls hair out*

...add blogs that aren't vox blogs to my friends list?

Thank you kindly.

I used to blog on 20six when I lived in London a few years back and I miss it. So I'm giving it another shot...